Hello there, little blogger who watched me grow up kinda.
Anyway, it's been three years, since I last posted. I did not die, I just forgot this place existed and instead
began using tumblr, though none them actually stayed since I keep deleting.
Three years and a lot has happened.
I no longer live at my old home, I have moved away and now live in a different area.
My father is no longer around, he has passed away and I don't really want to write details.
Even if this blog is mostly private. I would just forget it.
It's going to be my last year soon, in like a couple of weeks.
I am aiming to actually get a 2:1, I don't know or care if it's realistic enough but I can try.
I also want to try being a manager perhaps, or maybe going into helpdesk and then making my way into
consultancy. It's a good idea, either way.
I guess I should also write that, I plan to live a better life after University. I hope to achieve a lot.
Hopefully all this positive thinking will help me. Thank you for being around blogger. I'll talk to you soon.

*__* haven't updated, had nothing to say. Homework, got lots of it and i'm doing it now rather than leaving it. I'm so tired I guess, I'm just so confused with life, I want to be me and I feel like i'm not doing that you know. My blog is like, it has bits of me inside and it's like urgh...I'm so confused right now. GRR anyway.

I want to be androgynous.
I don't mind being a girl and I don't mind called one either, it's just I don't want to be like every other girl you see. I want to be different, I want to, I always have wanted to be slightly boyish in my clothes sense but I've actually never done it, I just look scruffy.
I want to be me now, I want to try out new things, I want to change my hair, cut it short not that short though. I want to wear light makeup and I want to wear skinny jeans on with collared shirts and jackets. Maybe I'll even throw a scarf in there, I don't want to wear flats, i'm going to wear boots on or converses. I want to confuse people, that's what I want to do. I want to like a pretty boy, is that bad? I hope not.

Labels: life, me

Last week was freshers week, they showed us around and told us stuff that might be relevant thats all. Yesterday classes officially started but teacher didn't bring in his stuff so I we were like 'okay' and then left after like 10 minutes, since friends were browsing facebook. Today intro to PDP learning and we had a talk, we basically just listened. I am currently very tired, I spend ages in town walking around and looking at stuff with friends. I went into most of the shops, me and my friend are saving up to buy makeup for ourselves so we're hardly spending much. I have some money in my bank and also this time around I get my own bank card, so yeah that's great. I'm getting a haircut this friday booked myself for 2:30pm, I have no idea what hairstyle i actually want, I'm just going to walk in and ask for consultation because I don't want my hair to be fucked up just because I thought it'd look good.

I have to spazz about Universty guys, we have so many chinese/taiwanese/korean guys that are so good looking like seriously. Most of them are like medium height, some are tall but that's like only a little. I thought they'd be tall, I expected them to be. They're so good looking that it makes me jealous. Jealous at the fact they have good genes and they look good with what they wear. I wish I looked good wearing the clothes I did. I just look 'bleugh' and plus they all have really nice skin, not being a pervy but they have like clear pale skin most of them and that makes me jealous. The girls are super pretty too, but guess what. I know that most of them are rich it costs quite a bit to come study abroad so yeah~ I wish I meet some really nice asian kids and we can become buddies, that'd be so awesome. I love asian culture and wow I'm just so happy we have Universty that is so diverse.

I want their skin, universty boys look good in anything urgh. They have clear skin most of the asian guys. My skin is just hideous -.-

Labels: boys, haha, life, uni

On the 6th of the August me and my sister and cousin set off to paris. we reached france the same day. It was Friday and we set off really early like at 6am in the morning or something close like that. By 9am we were in Paris~the city was beautiful. I loved every moment I spent in the city, we spent like 3 nights in paris I think. We visted the main attractions~ I went for the effiel tower.Omy gosh, it was bloody really high, but fear not I did go all the way up it. I enjoyed the view so much, though some of the time my legs were feeling really wobbly and such, aha. The french have some rotten cheese, I guess we all do, we tasted the cheese on the 3rd day on accident, nearly all of us felt sick. I mean when you get a cheese sandwhich, you expect normal cheddar, but I guess the french lady didn't understand us or something. But whatev, in france they make savoury pancakes which was weird. Pancakes here are served with sweet fillings and such, but their too, but it was weird eating pancakes with slices of cheese. We visted the chapel, or church, I'm not farmilar with it, and I can't be bothered to get google out. It's the white chapel! that you can see beautiful views from~ it was nice going up there, but wow was it hot! I nearly burnt myself T_T which was pretty awful.

Other than the paris Visit, nothing really happened in the summer holidays. Boring, I had to fast and keep fasting. Thats all. I can't wait for Universty life, I'm scared and excitied ^^ wohoo hello 4 years of my mature life~ 8D

Labels: life, summer

I finished college last week. On tuesday I think and hell it feels like it's been a month. The days are slow and there is nothing to do. I have finished every assignment and handed it in and now I'm at home. There is nothing interesting to talk about, I can only fangirl so much, my life is't going to be dependant on celebrity news. Sorry but I'm not going to sit near my laptop all day, if I get the chance I'll go run off somewhere and enjoy a few hours. Currently I'm so bored though, I haven't done anything at all much,perhaps I should do daily practises on photoshop so my skills get better. Seems like a good idea to me anyway, oh well I'm going to go do something now. So see yah blog blog.

Labels: life, summer

Haha so I'm not that educated with the hindi/urdu/ punjabi language but i'm not stupid. Okay so today i set off to college with my friend, we were walking when two asian ladies walked past us. I am pretty sure she said 'Is that a boy ?' she was obviously referring to me, my friend looked like a female and everything and was dressed like one. I wasn't and well my hair was tied back like always and this bloody woman just says that. Seriously, go mind your own damn business. What the hell -.- that just pissed me off, like ehh are you blind? she must have thought I was my friend's brother or something then >_< GRR.
Anyway~ D-NA. Daeguknamah got haircuts and they looks so adorable, Karam looks so much like Jaejoong. He's my age *__* and it's so hard to believe that rofl <_<. He looks way younger than me, but obviously I just think that, because people still think i'm 17 or something .__. I'm 19 , thank you very much. Haha .__.
Oh yeah, what else...ERM o.o I'm nearly finishing college! 8D oh yes baby and I'm in a good mood. D'aww. Yeah and Jaechunsu had a concert, heard they were all emotional.
Junsu single is like hot *__* and so is he, Yoochun stars in his own drama and Jaejoong plays a innocent victim in his japanese drama. WAHH reason I haven't watched the drama, I heard he plays someone sad and emotional, plus he gets bullied in it. I don't want to watch him crying, or getting beating up. I won't be able to take it T_________T Don't touch my man like that wahh T_T. PLease!! GRR so yeah, I'm glad he has a drama, hopefully jaechunsu get out a single this year ~<3 I'll BUY IT.
You too HOMIN! <333>_<; WAH Yunho, doesn't have a huge voice like junsu or jaejoong, but lets hope he's improved and that the musical is a success.
I need changmin! <3 SM better continue showing us HOMIN, if they end up like CSJH. I will go over to korea and strangle the owner of SM. Only kidding, but yeah. Don't hide our stars.

Labels: life, love

This is me and I will never change~!
I'm a tomboy, I love being it. I love dressing like a girl/guy.
and you know, I give up trying to be girly girl. Because I ever won't be it. I just don't want to, it's my damned choice and I hate the fact that at times I am influenced by the world.
But here I have decided, I will continue dressing my way , I'll just make it a bit more neater and bit more girly rather than trampy like most my friends call it. 8D
I dress trampy, dude I admit that, I don't iron my clothes at times because I'm lazy and yes I don't care if i don't look good enough for people.
But heck it! I want to make that effort now, so that people know I can look neat and still keep my fashion sense. I'll prove to you that I can be just as good looking with my style of clothes~ I don't need dresses!!

First of all I gotta spazz about one particular girl. KIM HANEUL ~! Storyseller's drummer.
she is hot, she is pretty and she is talented like hell. The way she goes dum de dum on those drums, I fell in love at first sight~<3333 storyseller man, you guys are just awesome. I can't wait for their single<33 They've been pretty much inactive since 2008 apparently, though they've had those occasional concerts and such!

Labels: life, me