well that microsoft lady did come on monday. You see she came on Monday and it was an enjoyable talk, except for some people who found it rather long and boring, I got a pretty good insight about her job. She's a premier field engineer, no it does not involve cars or anything. Yes, no she doesn't work in the USA. She works in the UK Microsoft company which is in Reading. Yes in Yorkshire I think, which is good for me, because I'm from Yorkshire, so yeah haha yorkshire pride. LOL. Anyway she talked about all the opportunities she had , like she get' to travel so much even though she's travelling around going to seminars and meetings, she gets to meet new people and places. Now come on, who doesn't want a job that means you get to travel around the globe and meet new people, I mean, I'd love to be going to Tokyo one week and then couple of months later to the US for a meeting even, this means that you get the chance to explore whilst you also get some knowledge into your brain. She also said they were lacking females, I'm a female I may be at an advantage then, premier field engineering is pretty new she mentioned that a couple of times which was okay and yeah well I think we heard her the first time. She kept rambling on and I was just wondering how that woman kept on talking, and you know she talked about how her job requires her to go do talk and me being a shy person I really want to start being more talkative in front of class and not having a red face everytime someone notices me. I hate it, but I get red faced when I go up in front of classes and have to do a presentation or a teacher picks on me or someone who I don't know starts talking to me. Me and new people and people are not good, I suck at making new friends, but if i have to, then somehow I do get friend..I just won't remember how I became friend with you. Yeah it sucks to be a friend of mine. Anyway since she's came and started talking, my heads in a little buzz and it's all because she mentioned internship. She mentioned that Microsoft offers those and you know what I love microsoft. I mean, I've used windows and office all my life and well Bill Gates is a great role model. He's a fricken genuis and so is his team, yeah I know he's not the only man haha. Okay so she mentioned something like, err ....Microsoft does with some colleges. Now that some is actually I have no idea, but my local Universty doesn't do it, like only the gaming part of it has that internship and I don't really like gaming. I talked to my Dad about it, he was a bit iffy saying things like.. ' you can't cook, you can't iron' basically he was just listing down all negative points saying how a person like me wouldn't be able to survive alone without my mom. Yeah, if you don't let me loose, how am I supposed to know? suck right. Anyway so I checked up Universtys, lots of them and well like I said I don't really know anything about engineering and..well you know there are a lot of different aspects of Microsoft. So as planned, I plan to stick to my area of choice which is Software development, don't ask me why . I don't know, I love software and developing it seems fun. I like the idea of that. haha. Sooo...what's my problem.
ERMMM I need to know the Uni's that do the Microsoft internship so I can attend them and have a higher chance of getting into the company for my training year. I don't have to get a job there you see, just I want my training done there. You see I'm really paranoid, I really want a good future and me having to go my local college just because it saves money....really isn't a good enough excuse to make me stay other than my friends, but you know, my future life and well I really do want to move away, learn stuff make friends and you know. Well I don't know about you, but I've been looking up.
I've come to conclusion right now, I rather like the Universty of HULL. You see, it's near scarbrough, my brother loves scarbrough, and i'm a sucker for beaches, water and big long island of nothingness and also I've seen the scenery and it's beautiful. Now...all I need to find out, is if that they have that internship offer available in thier uni. If they do, I might just go off there.
Money will probably be a problem, I'll be getting loans I bet and obviously paying them myself so I really don't need my parents worrying about them. I'll have to pay them back and I will you know, so money...yeah I'm not rich but i'm not poor either am I. cos I do live in a house with internet connection.

Labels: life, rant, uni

I think tommorow I may have a sore throat and a runny nose. My throat hurts right now, and I have a runny nose which sucks tommorow I go to college for one lesson though which is alright I guess. A employee of Microsoft is coming to our college who is going to talk to us, she's a woman. I want to see and hear what she says. Sounds cool~ maybe I'm just too excitied lol. Anyway I met my friend yesterday, Maryum and Ameena it was fun. They started college Last week and they are worrying about Money. They got loans and it hasn't been deposited into thier bank account yet so they're having to survive on ema they have saved up from the last two years. Yikes! Atleast they get a loan right, I asked my parents If I could get a loan next year just like them and they said no. Which means I probably will need a fucking a part time job, they say they don't want me to get a loan because they want my money to go to me so I don't be like them paying off debt, but still I want to have money and not be in tight spot next year. GRRR I hope they have money because my books will cost and I will obviously be spending. I'm a girl who get's pocket money from my mother still and she holds my credit card. When am I going to get the chance to be independant. ahh! that pisses me off, she should atleast give me my credit card grr. >_>; woman! I need to learn how to handle my money and have chance to be mature financially. Give me the bloody chance. I just hope I get a job, I hate working on tills, I'm not good with customers, I'll go red, I rather be a stock helped or someone sorting out shelves or something. .___. well I'm off noww.

So on thursday we went to blackpool, i took £20 and wasted nearly all off it. Haha the day started off bad, because me and my friend sana reached the place late and the bus was waiting. I can't belivewe were the last one's there. Though I was sure we'd get there early, sucks but we did manage to get on the coach. We sat at the back of the coach where all the students were. Altogether we had about 20 something people only, yeah that's a lot less for a big coach that we had ordered. So I took my mp3 in hope of listening to it on the way but apparently my music earphones wouldn't work. Now i know why they don't work and that is because several times I have slept with them on and trust me i don't lay still when i sleep so the wires must have gotten tangled and each time the ear phones must have gone weaker because on thursday they stopped working for the right ear phone piece and i prefer listening to music with both ears. Listening to music through one ear is just weird , so i couldn't use them and instead me and Sana talked and looked out of the window. The guys were making so much noise, idiots they just couldn't shut up and that was getting me annoyed but near the end they flaming shut up. So we reached there about 10:15am just like our teacher had predicted and then we got rushed over to the education center since we were going to have to listen to a presentation. The presentation, it was alright she just told us about the history of blackpool. Did you know blackpool pleasure beach is actually a family business, well I didn't know that. So after that little presentation we then got our tickets into the theme park. Yeah they checked our bags, I was kinda nervous cos I had like pads in my bag, but luckily the guy never went through it properly because if he did, it'd be embarassing .__.
The first ride the came was the , bumpy cars,I don't know what they call it in blackpool but maryam went on there. Me and Sana didn't, we just watched them and then went to the shop opposite the ride, they sold boring stuff, so we just looked around and then waited for the Maryum to hurry up.
Like i could go on about the whole day, but i'm not planning too. Overall I went on
the helicopter ride, horses,this egyptian boring ride, plus some other which i forgot. But I didn't go on the pepsi max or the avanlache or the irn bru, cos i'm scared of dying. But Sana and Maryum went on Pepsi max and were scared shitless. Oh yeah I tried winning my friend a bear on this balancing ladder, but i failed miserably. We ate food from this takeaway, can you belive they have asian halal food in blackpool, well outside the themepark. We ate from there chips, I had a icecream from a stall before the chips. I didn't really get anything else from the place because seriously I don't like halal asian food .___. much. I ate too much junk. I ate flying saucers, two icecreams and more candy. Eww i felt gross after eating it but then again I was hungry so i had to eat it. Trust me healthy food in themeparks doesn't exist.
Me and Sana and Maryam went to beach, I got my shoes dirty and wet and my jeans too. Haha My friends didn't go onto the sand or to see the water, they stood near the walls and sat down while I walked over to the sand and water and took plenty pictures. <33 I love the beach. weee~
I saw a gay couple, haha they were so cute, they were posing together and like had there arms linked i thought it was pretty cute. My friends saw them but thier reactions were different. Oh well, not everyone's straight you know. haha. Went on the beach twice because, they wanted to see me run towards the middle of the sand right near the edge, only because they found binocoulars and they wanted to test them.
Coming back home, it was quiet and we were so exhausted, since me and Sana and Maryam had been walking around too much. On friday I didn't even want to go to school because my legs were still flaming hurt, but I had to go.

Psshh and yeah yesterday was eid. All I got was like £30 pounds only, but oh well, this just proves I need a real job so this week I'm so writing up my CV and giving it out hopefully this week or next. I ate food lots of it and today my mommy is hosting tonight. Yeah she made lots of food and I'm so hungry right now because I want to go downstairs and nick some food from the kitchen. She made lamb spice curry, meatballs,rice and lamb, carrot pudding whatever they call it, some fried potatoes and even ..chart masala with stuff. Yeah! and I haven't ate since the morning, all i had was samosas that tasted like tuna -.- gross and a fricken biscuit.

I want food and I want it now. grr

Well College has started and I decided to well practise my doodling skills in website class. Yeah in college we have a website class it's pretty fun thought I hate the html part we had to write it up. The teacher is easy going, he's a good teacher and I'm glad we have him this year too, cos last year he was my graphics teacher. Im talking about yesterday's lesson btw which was boring. OMY in computer animation class, we always fall asleep, well in the 2nd class in the one where we have to listen to videos, the video man's voice is so boring he puts me to sleep. I just can't help it but to want to fall asleep, he puts me in lala land. On Monday we have an enrichment and in my last college we got to choose our enrichment class,but in this college you don't get no choice. I am doing personal finance, I guess it'll be useful in the future but still I wanted to have a fun lesson not one where I had to remember loans and overdrafts. It sucks that I learned this in Business a year ago and in economics. Damn it, it brings back horrible memories but alas I will pass this class. Tuesday is the longest day and so is Thursday, damn college people switching lessons around. .___. they're going to cry when they reach January and they have piles of works on tuesday and Thursday but no time to do it. Other than that, I go to blackpool again tommorow, this time I will take pictures and save and back them up. Yeah i'm not skipping college, I'm going with my college class. Yeah I am, it'll be fun, oh so fun.

that's my hair, Yes I got it cut. I cut it to my shoulders and got a side fringe. Snap! I don't know what to do with it other than put a clip on it and a hairband. Yikes I suck at hairstyling I just simply do. One more thing, I 've been stalking the aff(x)tion forum loads lately haha. I love my time over there it's so fun and I've been stalking soompi like always I guess. Yeah other than that, I don't think I've got anything else to say. Pshhh oooh TTL-SuperNova and T-ara song rocks, I listened to it yesterday so many times ;____; it's just that good. Yeah and there is this new girl group called HAM. Yeah you heard me right, They're HAM .Heart and Mind. not the meat. ROFL oh well g'day

hahah we are after all going to be divided into two groups. Thank you for that, I don't want any idiot from the other class to be in our class, because I love my boring group, for bieng lame and boring. It was fun, our introduction lasted about 50 minutes and that's it and then we could go. They gave us handbooks which had stuff that we already know about and guess what! we got no diarys cos he knew we never use it. Haha so that was good and our timetable is fucking horrendous. I don't like it, on monday we have only one lesson and that is enrichment. >_> That's at 1pm, so we only go into college for one lesson and in the afternoon which sucks couldn't he just move it to the morning. Well atleast we don't start at 9am except for Thursday, yeah we got lucky on that. Our lesson on Tuesday is the longest I think, we finish and 5:15pm I think, I'm not going to get up and check that because I'm frickken lazy. >_>; Yeah and I downloaded Yoochun& JaeJoong's melody and harmony ahha I think I'm going to fricken buy it or F(x) album when they bring one out. My new obesession is that girl band called F(x) haha I remember when the teaser was revealed, everybody thought ALEGBRA or MATHS seeing the name and I even wished they changed thier name, but it's okay now. My favorite is the group tomboy Amber, she's fricken adorable along with Krystal and Su-Li the others are good too, but I have favorites so yeah.

Labels: fx, maths, music, sep

OMY GOODIE it's going to be my first day once more, and it's my 2nd year in college. I'm fricken nervous but i know that tommorow is going to be a start of another repetitive pattern just like last year, it's just going to be on repeat. Maybe a lot harder, probably just harder that's all. It doesn't help that I have a few zits on my forehead, which make me look dumb and just more ugly than usual agh. Stupid lazy me, I haven't been looking after myself properly, well beauty wise anyway.
My hair sucks this year too and i'm not looking forward to sharing class people. I don't want new people in my class, i liked my loser class .___. they were funny and boring at the same time. AGH please don't put new people in my class!! Tommorow we go for two hours only I think it's introduction for the 2nd years. Oh well I'm meeting up with Sana tommorow by the libarary i think >_>; -goes to check msgs-