i decided to talk about Dbsk, haha because of Yunho, I have wrote why i hate you mostly, I like you kinda because you make Jaejoong smile, you're hilariously funny at times. Remember the noky times and when you were laughing with Yoochun, Gosh you were so funny you know that.
I loved your wonky teeth and watched a few old xman videos and other stuff with your old teeth, you looked so cute you know that. I like the way you were younger, more carefree, now you just look old and well I don't want you to push yourself too hard. Please don't leave my jaejoong alone with chun and su because he loves you. He really really loves you, you're the closest person he can be with you make him smile like so bright, you make him blush and more, please don't. I love Yunjae, and yunjae with yun..is just jae alone. I don't know if the pairing is real or not but I ..in a way want it to be. T____T even if you guys end up marrying to women oneday I want you to be atleast together in some sort of relationsip . I reallly really don't want anything to happen to you too. Now im rambling on sorry.

Without JaeJoong, a part of my life would crumble away. He's my inspiration, my rolemodel, my dream guy my such more. He's everything nearly, I can't find faults about you, I just can't seem to, you're almost perfect but I would never ever in my life try to even be with you, because kim JaeJoong is way over my standards. He's like the sun, and I'm like a small daisy, stuck between many. I want to keep lookin at him from afar. I think I'd be too shocked if I ever met him by chance, i'd probably faint and die D: Kim jaejoong you make me swoon ~ you make me smile, you make me blush, you make me giddy and you make my day brighter, you lighten up my world with your bright smile and your unsual self. I love your dorkiness and your clumsyness, as a fact I would like to say, Kim jaejoong when I first saw you I didn't find you interesting nor goodlooking or cute. I looked away from your picture and stared at junsu who for me, was my first ever Dongbangshinki crush. Do i regret that..NOOOO. never. Kim jaejoong I want you to be as happy as you can ever be, I don't care how you achieve that happiness as long as that bright smile on your face comes back. I don't care who you marry, how you marry or who or what or whatever shit. I want to be looking at Kim jaejoong in the future and be like yeah. I'm a fan and I love him for being jaejoong. Kim jaejoong T___T Han Jaejun sarangahaeyo.

Yoochun!!! what's with your clothes, fashion sense at times? it looks like mine D: which it isn't supposed to be , because i'm a normie who's not a celeb and is lazy. you're famous, you're always looked at, don't look like you walked out of bed, people talk you know , though I find it charming because you're not afraid of people and what they think. I like that about you. I love your voice.

OMY RANDOM OUTBURST. KIM DAUL DIED. T___T
she was fucking amazing, so artistic so out there you know, I loved how showy and confident she was in herself. ;_______;

......editing l8r. sad now

I feel dirty man!!!! like my face feels unclean and i feel fat. Mind you i'm not even 100lbs and above 5ft, Its the legs I blame, fucking flaming fat thighs yuck D: make me feel so humongous and oh yeah Kate moss is getting battered by the press, way to go blondey. anways eating lasanagne too many times a month makes me sick, I ate it like 5 minutes ago and i'm so ewwified its just urgh I can't take it. Right....sorry haven't posted, lifes been a bitch you know and ive got work to do. I started my fuckin personal statement, it sounds so lame, like seriously ._____. i sound like a geek/snob. whatever i need it to get in and i also haven't done my UCAS don't i suck ? wahh im so evil, what else, oh yeah my friends are hypocrites, well one of them. Sheesh person, don't say crap and then do it yourself, seriously sometimes I think you're flaming **** not that you dress like that, you just behave like it at times even though you're not doing anything bad that is seeable to the normal people. Seriously, like come wtf man, and oh yeah seriously you man! don't walk like theres something stuck up your ass and seriously don't laugh every time and look behind at her, cos she's laughing at you and seriously she's only playing along. You're so dillusional, i feel so sorry for you, gosh you think you're like 'it' but you're not okay. You piss me off to no end and you know what I hate the fact that you won't do it front of me but like behind my back cos you know how retarded i find you acting like that. You can't blame me you act like one and well not everyone is going to be on your side. haha I already know about the gifts and such, sheesh she's not even that close to you like say what. ....don't imagine things boy just don't cos for reals you're like...nowhere close to her wants. and You lady are you going to regret stuff in your life and you know what im going to say 'you deserved it' you do and you know what please don't chat shit about other girls, cos the same shit is being said about you and you know whats more idiotic. The shit about you, seems more reaslistic and theres a chance it's real i mean we dont know the real you, you're shy in front of us and stuff but who knows you could be hiding stuff.

okay that was a rant , sorry some people just piss me off to no end you know -.- its like...shut up.
anyways. TVXQ!! yah yunho and changmin~ you better attend the MAMA awards too you're tvxq not ....T.V D: that was lame. I don't care if you're not allowed by SM, get your ass on the show when Jaechunse attend, do it somehow, runaway and attend cos if you don't attend, you're going to look like huge bad guys stop being greedy, choose your bandmates over money why don't you? .___. ....I thought I liked you Yunho, like even though I hate...hated..hate most of your outfits, expressions, acting, dancing,singing...I like you in a werid way. I hate the way you sometimes do girly dances that appear so eww looking, you're not really trying to do those girly dances I know you're not, you're trying to pop but sometimes when you try to hard they look so crappy and make me cringe in my seat. Yes I have sometimes covered my eyes or skipped your dance segments because of that, I can't help it.

I don't like you singing much, i like it more when you rap and sound more like yourself rather than someone on crack, you sing good, you're goood really good but sometimes when you try to distinguish yourself from others you just sound werid to me, sorry about that. You can can rap and can sing, but don't force yourself to do it, do it like you would not cos someone tells you. I know when you used to come on dance shows or vareity shows they'd tell you to dance each time, because you're so cool and dance great. I've seen you MV's you can dance awesome. They pressure you, and you being yourself always give your 100% even though it ends up looking cringe worthy to me.

I don't like it when sometimes your dancing you pull silly expressions, you look angry and then sometimes the picture looks so wrong, theres one picture of you with your hand on your hip and your hand slightly bent in a position one would say 'gay pose' seriously im not against gays, it's just that i don't what you call the pose and you know how those gay charactars on TV and movies do the pose , well Yunho has done that, it looked so werid. I don't like your long hair, you looked so girlish to me, ....no wait you didn't. You look scruffy, like as if the hairdresser was too lazy to cut your hair, and since your were so muscly during your time, thankfully you were in japan so the fashion was okay with it, you look awful during that time especially with the hair. I hate it. I don't know why I don't like you as much as JaeJoong, there's so many faults about you i find.

I don't like the fact your name is with changmin on SM side. I can't stand you being apart from DBSK along with changmin, but I know even though if one day somethings happens to you and I probably won't still like you as much as everybody else in the band, I will cry my arse off and cry till my tears have ran out for you because you're totally worth it. You're like a gem in DBSK, i can not like you but i can't bear to see you without your bandmates, alone depressed, gone or whatever bad shit. gosh you're the only celebrity i like/hate. I don't know what it's about you, you're so ugh, i try ignoring you all the time you know that. Like I didn't watch your drama you know that and didn't finish the first episode cos your acting made me cringe it was soo over reacting. I didn't sit around and wait for your progress because I wasn't patient and I probably won't be with you. I don't know . you confuse my brain and if I ever had a wish, I wish that I could look through the eyes of a jung yunho fan, what do they see in you. Other than leadership and all those good things, what do they love about you?

I love the fact that you exist. does that count?

I haven't touched it, in class I'll be rushing it I bet, darn it oh well i'm too lazy and my internet sometimes shuts off which is fricken annoying. Oh the drama You're beautiful well the whole of the boy band knows she's a girl now. go nam is a girl, ooh and guess what shinwoo already knew yikes! he likes her and I'm so excitied man 8D lalal.
back to topic, my day has been well you could say and some rumours about DBSK getting a fair contract is coming out, NOOO i don't want that to happen. You haven't read the contract it's awful man >_>; they're like slaves to SM you know so I want them to leave SM and start new. Now if I win the lottery I will pay for thier fine and other stuff but sadly I'm not rich which sucks so badly man. 2pm is back yeah with 6 members and not 7 sniff sniff.
I'm out now, I burnt the roof of my mouth because of flaming hot lasagne it sucks you know

Labels: hot, life

I love the drama it's so hilarious , I don't get why they get low ratings for. Iris looks shit to me and there is no cute love story going on, people only watch cos of TOP.Duhh well people need to start watching you're beautiful too you know and also heaven's postman is coming out soon. Yay! I love hanhyojoo and JaeJoong's coupling, i saw the teaser and guess what JaeJoong actually knows how to act better than Yunho. Oh baby yes!! ooh i hope ratings be very high and Jaejoong stars in dramas from then on, cos i'd watch him everyday if i could. Oh yes I download 2pm waiting and crazy,the two news songs which i love so much. They are awesome.

Sigh, Today I have one piece of work to do I think or two, which i won't do and will do in college probably. I'll do nothing today just because I can and I will.

I hope to learn korean so i can understand wtf is going on jaejoong's world ;_____; jaejoongiee! wait for meh

I feel like crying, firstly 2pm's song comes on and it's about waiting and I think it's directed to Jaybum. Heck we all think it is. It's sad and sweet, sickingly sweet. Then there's dbsk's issue which is hurting me now. I've never cried for a band, haha seems ridiculous, but I think tonight I'm going to have a good cry about then. I love them, dammit I love them so fucking much. Now there's news about fake interview with Jaechunsu which they denied later on and said they didn't take any part in it. I don't know what to believe and then an offical statement by Cassopeia comes out. They won't believe anything if it doesn't come out homin's mouth. and you know what. I'm going to stop looking at Soompi and Allkpop for thier news. I want to stop finding so much negative news, because it's making me depressed and all day today my mood was slightly down. -sigh- AHHH
i will try to be happy whatever happens, but I don't want my dbsk to be split. ;____; why why ahhh why so bitchy for sm. I hate you SM, I hate you for making us love your bands and then watch as you tear them apart in front of us. I'm so frustrated, I don't know what to say and how to react. well JaeJoong's kissing scene picture was revealed. He kissed open mouthed, it actually made me laugh that he can kiss a girl. But wooo~ it was with han hyo joo YAY i love her, not like that though. ^_____^ that made me happy for a moment and then I saw Yunho's kiss pic and went gross, I was looking at his hands , he seriously needs to use vaseline on his hands. Yeah..and the only reason I went hunting for Yunho's is cos some fan decided to make a yunjae version which got me like WTH . like seriously did you have too...-.- gosh. I'm a Yunjae fan but no I did not wanting to see that. GRR anyway then I got sad since I realized that kiss with JaeJoong was old and Hanhyojoo kissed Lee seungi. >_>; and there's no chance those two will go out sniffs. BTW why does ARA look fricken scared for and shocked, anyway to me Yunho's kiss was the last best thing they could give to the fans~ since the drama got cut off and i'm pretty sure the fans are going to be glaring at him and her rather than smiling. Well ...still eww, Maybe I'm just immature, I don't like watching people kiss and Yunho's kiss made me go eww, two grown ups kissing yucck. Though ARA is young, a year older than me ...ewww D: I was a strong, I wanted Yunho and JaeJoong to be together forever, I don't know what happened to me or them. I want this court shit to hurry and end and I want jaesuchun to win because they deserve to win against those fucking sm.
I'm waiting for them to come back smiling, come back as Dbsk, tvxq and smile and tell everybody it'll be alright. <333333

Labels: dbsk, life, tears

I surely hope not.
I want DBSK to stay together but I don't know what to believe now, as a fan of dbsk i'm so sad right now i could cry. It's not fair, why oh why does have to happen. SM stop being so greedy, you've always been greedy we know, it happened with shinwha. h.o.t and now dbsk. it's happening again and again why don't they get it. AHHH i'm so frustrated right now. I surely hope that the Yunho and Changmin siding with SM is not true. I won't believe it, why would Yunho say 'we will stay together' and then turn around and go against his brothers. Why would he say that to us for, why lie to us in front of our faces, we believed you guys don't smack that back into our face. But I'm saying now i will side with Jaechunsu, even if SM makes them look evil and that shit. I hate you so much SM so much. YUNHO AND CHANGMIN!!! I don't know what to say to them other than, i feel sorry for them. I was so angry at first but now i've gone weak and instead I just feel sorry for them and sad. I can't hate any of them at all, but I can hate SM. This is the first band I've gotten close with and i've actaully loved and listened to all of thier songs. It's so saddening, of course I knew they weren't going to be there forever, cos I know they have a life but I didn't expect them to get into court fight and money issues. I thought SM was a nice company two years ago when I was new to DBSK, but now I know how evil they are.

my keyboard kkkkkk is taking the piss to work man. GRRR this makes me angry now. urgh.
my day sucked as you can tell.