I feel dirty man!!!! like my face feels unclean and i feel fat. Mind you i'm not even 100lbs and above 5ft, Its the legs I blame, fucking flaming fat thighs yuck D: make me feel so humongous and oh yeah Kate moss is getting battered by the press, way to go blondey. anways eating lasanagne too many times a month makes me sick, I ate it like 5 minutes ago and i'm so ewwified its just urgh I can't take it. Right....sorry haven't posted, lifes been a bitch you know and ive got work to do. I started my fuckin personal statement, it sounds so lame, like seriously ._____. i sound like a geek/snob. whatever i need it to get in and i also haven't done my UCAS don't i suck ? wahh im so evil, what else, oh yeah my friends are hypocrites, well one of them. Sheesh person, don't say crap and then do it yourself, seriously sometimes I think you're flaming **** not that you dress like that, you just behave like it at times even though you're not doing anything bad that is seeable to the normal people. Seriously, like come wtf man, and oh yeah seriously you man! don't walk like theres something stuck up your ass and seriously don't laugh every time and look behind at her, cos she's laughing at you and seriously she's only playing along. You're so dillusional, i feel so sorry for you, gosh you think you're like 'it' but you're not okay. You piss me off to no end and you know what I hate the fact that you won't do it front of me but like behind my back cos you know how retarded i find you acting like that. You can't blame me you act like one and well not everyone is going to be on your side. haha I already know about the gifts and such, sheesh she's not even that close to you like say what. ....don't imagine things boy just don't cos for reals you're like...nowhere close to her wants. and You lady are you going to regret stuff in your life and you know what im going to say 'you deserved it' you do and you know what please don't chat shit about other girls, cos the same shit is being said about you and you know whats more idiotic. The shit about you, seems more reaslistic and theres a chance it's real i mean we dont know the real you, you're shy in front of us and stuff but who knows you could be hiding stuff.

okay that was a rant , sorry some people just piss me off to no end you know -.- its like...shut up.
anyways. TVXQ!! yah yunho and changmin~ you better attend the MAMA awards too you're tvxq not ....T.V D: that was lame. I don't care if you're not allowed by SM, get your ass on the show when Jaechunse attend, do it somehow, runaway and attend cos if you don't attend, you're going to look like huge bad guys stop being greedy, choose your bandmates over money why don't you? .___. ....I thought I liked you Yunho, like even though I hate...hated..hate most of your outfits, expressions, acting, dancing,singing...I like you in a werid way. I hate the way you sometimes do girly dances that appear so eww looking, you're not really trying to do those girly dances I know you're not, you're trying to pop but sometimes when you try to hard they look so crappy and make me cringe in my seat. Yes I have sometimes covered my eyes or skipped your dance segments because of that, I can't help it.

I don't like you singing much, i like it more when you rap and sound more like yourself rather than someone on crack, you sing good, you're goood really good but sometimes when you try to distinguish yourself from others you just sound werid to me, sorry about that. You can can rap and can sing, but don't force yourself to do it, do it like you would not cos someone tells you. I know when you used to come on dance shows or vareity shows they'd tell you to dance each time, because you're so cool and dance great. I've seen you MV's you can dance awesome. They pressure you, and you being yourself always give your 100% even though it ends up looking cringe worthy to me.

I don't like it when sometimes your dancing you pull silly expressions, you look angry and then sometimes the picture looks so wrong, theres one picture of you with your hand on your hip and your hand slightly bent in a position one would say 'gay pose' seriously im not against gays, it's just that i don't what you call the pose and you know how those gay charactars on TV and movies do the pose , well Yunho has done that, it looked so werid. I don't like your long hair, you looked so girlish to me, ....no wait you didn't. You look scruffy, like as if the hairdresser was too lazy to cut your hair, and since your were so muscly during your time, thankfully you were in japan so the fashion was okay with it, you look awful during that time especially with the hair. I hate it. I don't know why I don't like you as much as JaeJoong, there's so many faults about you i find.

I don't like the fact your name is with changmin on SM side. I can't stand you being apart from DBSK along with changmin, but I know even though if one day somethings happens to you and I probably won't still like you as much as everybody else in the band, I will cry my arse off and cry till my tears have ran out for you because you're totally worth it. You're like a gem in DBSK, i can not like you but i can't bear to see you without your bandmates, alone depressed, gone or whatever bad shit. gosh you're the only celebrity i like/hate. I don't know what it's about you, you're so ugh, i try ignoring you all the time you know that. Like I didn't watch your drama you know that and didn't finish the first episode cos your acting made me cringe it was soo over reacting. I didn't sit around and wait for your progress because I wasn't patient and I probably won't be with you. I don't know . you confuse my brain and if I ever had a wish, I wish that I could look through the eyes of a jung yunho fan, what do they see in you. Other than leadership and all those good things, what do they love about you?

I love the fact that you exist. does that count?